HAHA.
supposed to be doing work.
mugging.
catching up.
but i tend to drift off nowadays.
FARRRR too often.
lost my concentration level alr.HAIS.):
that day so happy i thought i regained my momentum to study alr.
went home alone today.
felt a bit zzzzz suddenly.
maybe its cause i got severe lack of sleep.
i feel tired but when i lie on my bed i cant seem to fall asleep.
this strangely resembles 2 plus months ago.
i dont want to go thru the same shit thing again.
then i can afford to. i have no sch.
if i try that stint now.
MUAHAHAHA.
i will burn out damn soon.
maybe i havent really recover yet.
OH shrugs.lol.
this kind of thing also not so easy recover from one.
not like flu.
got no medicine.HAHA.
just dont like to do stuff alone now.
oh well.
have to learn to get thru this.
i will be fine soon.
i hope.
no more emo-ing about this.
YEHHHHHH. :3
im still wondering whether should i wait.
or rather, whether it is worth it.
prob not.
i dont like to be in complicated situations.
this is an example of a VERY complicated situation.
i just want to get it over and done with.
is it that difficult to achieve?
sometimes i wonder if im only doing it to myself.
as a form of self blame.
doing it to compensate the wrong things,
the mean things, the not very nice things i have done.
not that i wanna treat myself this way.
more like my conscience is weighing on me.
i should stop blogging.
the frequency of my posts depict the extent of my emo.LOL.
